Reminiscing

  'Learning to Lean on Jesus'

      I wasn't raised in church, but when I finally started going, I can recall a song a lot of the elderly folks would sing. It was an old gospel hymn called 'Learning to Lean on Jesus.' Though I came out of more of a rock-genre, I still appreciated those lyrics as a newborn Christian. I remember time and time again going down to the church to pray, even when it was closed. When it was closed, I would go around back of the church and the central air unit was my meeting place with Jesus. I had no idea at that point of my life, Jesus actually lived inside of me. Every now and then, that old central air unit would start while I was praying, you might call it a coincidence, but I think the lord was trying to scare the **** out of me. It's been a journey all these years, following Christ. Many times I have failed to remember to lean on Jesus. What I have learned is that not leaning causes me to fall. I know this from hard-learned experience, and during many of those times, when I fell, I was embarrassed and ashamed and broken inside. I felt God had wasted his time on me. Still, I would feel the sweetness of His Holy Spirit drawing me. It was in those times, and even still today, that I'm learning not just to lean on Jesus, but also simultaneously He is the lifter of my head (Psalm 3:3). It gives me the idea, or the picture, of a child with outstretched arms crying out to daddy and daddy comes quickly and completes the embrace.
      I don't know what you're going through in your life; what makes you happy, what makes you sad. But I assure you, if you lean on Jesus, it will be the best choice you could ever make. I know sometimes, if you're like me, you walk around broken, then bitter, and before long, you're numb to God's Spirit. Let me remind you once again: Jesus loves you, He cares for you, and He is the lifter of your head.